there is this notion that lives within me
curious perhaps and maybe totally wrong
off base or completely insane
whatever the rationale,
I really don't bother gathering opinions
why do they matter?
if they don't line up with my core belief
or mad intuition
I merely lose interest and forget who said what ...

it's not really mad intuition
just easier to say,
than mystical thinking
metaphysical living
anything out of the norm,
anything other
traditional shmoes do shudder ...

I have no complaints, really
my needs are always met,
its just that my wants tend to get in my way
and I dwell for hours, maybe even days
yearning and longing for someone,
something
out of my reach
but why?

nobody's fault but my own
most times, I fall over my own shadow
slip in the way of progress even,
but mostly get bored by it all
I'm not really good at small talk,
it takes more than promises to hold my attention
more than sweet words to mesmerize,
I have heard almost everything a man can say
yet, have seldom seen what he can really do,
without some hidden agenda
and what good does that do?

could it be the uneven distribution
of gender related DNA?
that's funny!
DNA
not from your childhood,
not from your birth
but rather choices we all make here and now,
today
we are adults, aren't we?
not children with suits on
romping around like we're still sixteen
oblivious to lessons life brings
careless of those whose hearts are poured out before us,
stomping around like a child of three
and we expect to be respected
and taken seriously?
ha!
I have this notion within me ...

04/18/2007

Posted on 04/19/2007
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