The beauty that surrounded me
Was enough to bring the tears
Almost imperceptibly to
The surface, but too much
For me to approach.

Simple words failed to reach
My lips, becoming silent
Screams that only I could hear
As I tried to force them out.

The letters welded together
To form the bars of a cage
From which I needed to
Escape, so I ran. Away from
Everyone I wanted to be near,
Away from who I had to be,
But never from who I
Wished I wasn't.

My awkwardness increased
As the weight of my
Unspoken words grew with
My misplaced ambition.

Years later I suddenly find
Myself where I was back then.
Imprisoning myself with
Illogical desires, I feel
That old need to escape
Return, masquerading as
Innocuous nostalgia, if
Such a thing there be.

Leaving my world behind
Becomes a need again as
Disappointment with it
And my ability to live in it
Returns to remind me of
All I hated about my youth.

01/27/2007

Posted on 03/08/2007
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