the wind blowing away my hunger
tearing down my defenses
luring out the anxious child inside
there is nothing i can do to survive

sometimes it seems that all is lost
and i'm again remembering the past
but the future is why i need to focus
to see past the memories are crooked

what, again i'm here thinking of you
it's madness i swear it, never ending
why, oh, why can't i be spared a moment
i can not believe this end is stolen~!~!

nothing oh nothing, never oh never
i push, i shove you away
here again, there, never!!!
leave me be, this thought forever

i hate you, i love you, i lust you
i need -- contact, imagine your touch
but there you are, flying away from me
staring into the black, i still can not see

someday i'll awaken from darkened dream
there i'll find myself, locked mildew box
i'm lost, lost in the past of my tears
i can not survive; you are my fear.

01/30/2007

Posted on 01/30/2007
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