Hello, there.
It's been quite some time, love.
Do you remember the way we were?
Yeah, we were magnificent in the beginning.
I'm so glad I put an end to your loving me when I did.
As much as you think I already had,
I would have shattered you.

I've gone through so many changes.
Ups and downs, wrongs, rights, and lefts.
I chuckeled as you proclaimed that I am
The most morally sound person you've known.
You've missed so much in the past few months.
I'm not sure how I'll break the news to you.

Would it kill you to understand who I am?
(And, in that, knowing what I've done?)
Plausibly.
I'm not sure if I can keep living a lie.
The girl you knew
Took up vacancy some time ago.
(In the end, it was for the best - I swear it.)
I'm not saying I've become evil,
I've just seen and done
So much more
Than you were ever told.

I'd love to sit down with you,
In one of those oversized comfy coffee chairs.
At some holeinthewall coffee shop.
(Yeah, some things are always a constant.)
Talk about where exactly things went sour
Between you and I.
Explain to you why it had to end so soon.
And why I had the leave you the way I did.

I need you to understand who I am,
But I'm not sure you can do that without
Knowing where I've been.
(I'm terrified.)
I fear this might break you.
(I've broken you once before, and I'm not sure if I can do it again.)

I, too, long to hold tight to that
Innocent girl your heart has a pretty good grip on.
I would love for you to keep that illusion.
I think you should know that I know this is inherently wrong.

I'm not too sure where to go from here.

I wish you love.
I wish you peace.

01/02/2007