I am so lost without you.

Know matter how many times we talked about it,

no matter how much we did or didn't know it was coming,

I am devastasted that you are gone.

It  was only 13 days ago that they gave you 4 weeks to live,

I heard the words and I understood them,

but I could never have anticipated the emptiness I feel

You and I always talked about your journey and what you might feel,

and I pray that you were at peace dad, you looked like you were.

I hope you felt that I was by your side the whole time.

I hope that you realized that I love you so much and how much of an influence you were on my life.

The last few years we have become best friends,

I just wish we embraced each other the same way when I was younger.

We have travelled so far together, and I hope Dad that you are ok now

that you are not lost or scared.

I love you dad with all of my being.

I spent the last night in the hospital with you and gave you juice when you sat up

I didn't say a lot to you because we have said so much and I told you that it was ok for you to go

and I told you that kelly was waiting for you on the other side.

Please come to me some time and let me know you ok,

I need to know that it is ok on the other side.

I thought I would have got a message from you by now,

maybe you are just busy checking in..

Rest in peace dad, i mean it, rest in peace.

12/23/2006

Posted on 12/24/2006
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