Falling down with every step I attempt
No matter the what, when or why,
I end up flat on my face, worse than before
Darkness smirking around each corner, it seems
Stabbing my soul with tenacles deep
I can feel no release
and find myself swimming in these tears, relentless...

Grasping at soft, paper straws that glide by
and just when I think I've found one to hold onto,
I watch as it melts in my heart,
Drenched in this rain that won't stop
What was I thinking?
and I'm falling ever deeper inside of myself
Losing all hope for reprieve this time,
Consumed by my failure to find
Anyway out of this place of despair,
A nightmare that won't blow away,
This dark dream I can't run from ...

These fragile foundations have shifted or slipped
and with bleary eyes I drag out those blueprints,
Tattered and torn to look for a clue
Search for that table of keys with solutions,
No luck!
They've managed to vanish with all vestige of hope
and I'm right back to where I began
Flat on my face with no easy answers,
I must be losing my mind as nothing makes sense
I haven't a hint,
How did it end up like this?
My life has imploded, yet nobody sees
This level of stress that keeps bearing,
It's too overwhelming
I've come to the end of me ...

11/06/2006

Author's Note: Another poem inspired by my continuing frustration over the same legal matter and how emotionally draining the toll is taking on me, personally. This has been almost two years and counting.

Posted on 11/30/2006
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