Fifteen long years, a flash on life's screen.
Not long for a man to live,
too short for a child to die,
My mind is cluttered, questions of why?
Was it all a dream? Cloudy, now ,it seems...
A pet, a friend, an unknown endeavor..
Now I wish it could lasted forever!
My heart aches, pines, grieves, is broken...
Beyond repair.
My Brandi, is NOT THERE! or here,
or anywhere!
I need her, I'm desperate for her love..
I ask repeatedly for answers, to God above!
I sense her spirit every day, my girl isn't far away.
How will I live without her, now and forever?
Hope is in eternal life, we will share
God only knows how very much that I care.
I never said goodbye, I said I'll see you soon,
or later, no emotion has ever been greater.
I kissed her forehead, looked into those love filled eyes,
my wife did the rest, no if's and's or why's..
some things she cannot do, others can't I,
but one thing we both did was break down and cry.
I cry each day, sometimes I can't stop..
Driving, while cooking, while an aliminum can goes pop!
Will it ever end? will it get better in time?
I hope not , this heartache has indeed become divine..
therapy, hope, keeping the love alive..
deep in my heart, it will eternally survive.

09/22/2006