you... by Lisa-Dawn SparlingI have been so consumed by you lately,
I watched your boys the other night and I asked myself what you would think
If you could see who they are, If you could have just one minute to share with them.
I know that you and Dylan would laugh until the sun came up,
and that Jake would be your partner as you always said he would be.
I coudn't even fathom the joy that they would bring to you...
I have found myself wearing my sunglasses a lot to mask the pain in my eyes,
It has been eight and a half years and I have suddenly found myself staring into the sky
wondering where you are... I miss you so intensely it is almost unbearable.
I wonder how strict you would be, and I wonder how proud you would be.
I never asked myself "why" or "what if" when I lost you.
I could not have functioned if my mind was like that.
But all of the sudden I wonder where would we be if you were still here?
Would I have had my little girl? Would we have moved back to the island?
Would we struggle or would it have livedhappily ever after?
There are some things that I am sure of...
I am sure that you had more impact on my life than any other human ever could.
I am sure that I will miss you for the rest of my life.
I am sure that I am so blessed to have you boys.. they are so amazing Kelly...
They would blow you away....
I am sure that I have to figure out why the levy broke and years worth of tears decided to flood.
I am also sure that I have to work hard to build it back up again...
I don't get to feel the warmth when I am lost in our shadows.
I love you. 08/04/2006 Posted on 08/05/2006 Copyright © 2025 Lisa-Dawn Sparling
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