Oh God Joan, I don't care if everyone knows my personal business, but I have to tell you that I have been telling my husband the same thing since our HONEYMOON. 98% of me believes he doesn't love me, and 2% of me belives he does love me only because he says so. So I'm stuck in this lonely and empty marriage because he's not man enough to give me the closure I need to leave. 2%, and 13 years of hell. Sometimes I think that love is the worse addiction of all. Anyway I saved this to my favorites before I even started this comment. I've written many poems of love and despair, but none of them as truthful and clear as yours. I salute you.