You're a giddy child, standing in front of me telling me your dreams. As you rock back and forth, shuffling side to side, explaining all that's happening. It's like watching a little kid who just saw the coolest thing, retelling the story to a best friend. And that's what I am.

Does it not make sense I want to curl up next to you, tell me your dreams and I'll tell you mine. And does it not make sense that I want to wake up next to you, wake up to that smile wake up to mine. It's really a wonder that we aren't together, I'll take your hand if you take mine.

I am the NOT girl friend. I am the NOT wife. Though I play the role it's just a game till you finally open your eyes. And it's fascinating I have the patience, I have the faith that you're going to see...that you're going to wake up one day and see me.

I am the NOT girl friend. You're the first person I talk to when I wake. You're the last person I say good night to. And in between day and night you're checking up on me and me on you. If by chance we go a day where there's no communication at all, we have to spend hours sharing what went on.

I am the NOT girl friend. And when we're with our friends, we steal secret looks, inside jokes, and comfort knowing the other is there. If you're not feeling well I call you just at the right time, and we work on our problems so we'll live better lives. It's simply my presence, you'll say, that brightens up your day. Even when I'm not in a great mood you need me near you.

I am the NOT wife. I cook you food. And when you're tired and cranky I come up with solutions to appease you. I walk you to your car, you'll hug me tight and really all that's missing is that kiss good night. But you'll call me when you're on your way and to check in with me. And if you're fighting with a friend I'm the one who makes it all easy. I'll hold your keys and watch your phone while you go smoke a square. And come up to my apartment so I can pick an outfit for you to wear.

I am the NOT wife. You have to run plans by me. The summer isn't complete until we know where each other is going to be. And if by chance I forget to tell you I'll be on vacation for a while, you're put off I didn't let you know I'd be out of town. And you have these plans and trips we'll make as though this is a forever thing.

Because I'm the NOT girl friend. Because I am the NOT wife. Because I'm always going to be here confident in your choice. You're going to wake up one day and realize what's going on. I'm the best thing that ever happened to you and nothing else better will ever come along. And say you never figure out that I'm your perfect girl. Well then I'll just remind myself of the truth...I was NOT your girl.

06/08/2006