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why ask why?
by Christel Crewsi tense when i hear your name
my world freezes
hundreds of thoughts rush through my mind
and i dam up the river, yet again
But tonight, no dam
the thoughts run free
i'm scaring myself
with my own honesty
i can't say i'm still in love
and yet i love you still
somehow that little vow i made
you know, when i said i'd wait
may have taken root
what am i suppose to do
when i've tried moving on
letting the past be
yet at the mention of your name
my heart skips a beat
somewhere, did i make a mistake
was it supposed to end
when it did
how it did
i couldn't stop
a mind made up
i will tell myself
i don't care
you've moved on
and one day, i will too
you'd be proud of me,
if you knew how i've changed
i don't put myself down
i see the cup half full
and i look people in the eye
i don't know where to begin..
its been years now
and here i sit, unable to sleep
thinking about you
why?
because i was stunned tonight
when she told me
"you're not over him"
and my world froze
05/03/2006 Author's Note: i wrote this a while back... during a different time and season... figured it was time to post.. there is life beyond the unknown questions... thanks to Michelle Angelini for help with the revisions
Posted on 05/04/2006
Copyright © 2024 Christel Crews
| Member Comments on this Poem |
| Posted by Ashok Sharda on 05/04/06 at 02:01 AM Well, past should not have any bearing on the present but the cause of any effect is in the past. The only way is to create new causes by undoing the effect of the causes of the past. |
| Posted by Joan Serratelli on 05/04/06 at 10:01 PM I liked this piece- it made me think about past relationships and whether it's really possible to get over someone you truly love. Good read- loved the last few lines! |
| Posted by Elizabeth Jill on 05/05/06 at 04:12 AM Reading this got me to thinking about a person I hadn't thought of in years. This dude I thought I'd never get over missing.
(((peace))) & (((more poems))) this is great!
:) —JiLL |
| Posted by Jean Mollett on 05/06/06 at 12:06 AM Hi Christel,
Great piece of work, very good. Full of emotions.
Been there and done that, it's not easy. To let go of a love, that you still want so bad, things are not the same with him. It takes time to heal, then you pick up yourself. And dust off your clothes and continue on with a new lookout on life and love again. But, more cautious than ever. |
| Posted by Rula Shin on 05/07/06 at 11:11 PM Yes, some unknown questions become obsolete all together, and what was once unanswered then actually becomes KNOWN. You know. That's what I saw. |
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