Fuck reticence!
Fuck playing it safe!
I'm tired of the cage I have embraced
and I don't want to be a slave to anyone else's expectations of me
anymore
Maybe I AM making a mistake
Maybe I'll look back on this and regret
But what if I don't take the chance?
What if,
at the end,
I am shown a gag reel of how my life could have been and found that I could have actually found happiness?
I don't want to look back on my
(golden)
years and realize that you were the only one who was ever really there for me,
and that I threw you away because I was scared to let go of what was safe
secure
known
No matter what I choose, pain is requisite
No heart will be unscathed
But I can't play the hypocrite to his Ophelia
and pray that it will turn out all right
I have to let go of something sometime...

might as well be my chains

04/28/2006