Fighting transgression like
holding back the ocean
I reach for the
Unattainable
My heart is twisted
I crave, yet
Fear
Who are you?
How did you get in here?
Where were you...
(My ellipses are now correct)
I would break
if I could shatter
Pouring over you like
acid rain
I stretch
and
R E A C H
and flail against
... what?
Destiny?
Fate?
You make me feel
opened
vulnerable
accepted
... lov-

But we are soulmates
kindred spirits
though our souls travel
different paths
Mine leads me in honor
I am too full
and yet empty
I soak you up

and wish

I wish-

I must close myself to
your cerebral onslaught
your visceral invasion
(my fingers did the talking)
Because of honor
and Love
I am vulnerable
But I will not be
unfair
to you
or to him

My girlish heart
(I am NOT a fucking romantic)
is misdirected
I will rein it in
and pray
for Absolution.

04/25/2006

Posted on 04/25/2006
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