I'm feeling useless, not quite hopeless..
getting worse it seems, there are..
no dreams to dream,
without ability to even attempt..
the dreams fade away, before
they are dreampt.
desire still burns, the mind yearns
but alas, no progress in a stationary body.
and yet , I can,
be used for glory, some small part,
in a very large story,
embarrassed a bit,
and somewhat upset
yes , even a little mad,
where did it go?
all that I had?
strength, stamina, energy, zeal,
I start to think it was never all real.
I can't climb without a rail,
my legs sometimes fail,
I can't run , or jump, or throw a ball,
I can't climb over a hill or a wall,
and yet I can,
rejoice, lift my spirit and voice,
I can be used, connected to another body
the body of Christ.
I can't do what I want to do,
what I used to do,
what I'm supposed to do, in my mind anyway.
And yet...I can
I will, Thy will be done,
I can do all things
that He allows
I'm helpless, limited and I cry
then realize, my God has no limits,
endless mercy and grace,
and He can, when I cannot
put a smile on my face.

04/13/2006