It's a half past ten, and I'm all alone,
why weren't you with me by my side?
It's been going on for far too long,
some of the things I can't abide.

It's a half past ten, and you're not there,
left me aching and empty-handed.
Feels like I'm missing my right arm,
shuffled back in the deck, only branded.

If I miss you,
it's by design.
You got caught,
I'm doing time.

If I want you,
it's by mistake.
You shattered me,
yes, I can break.

It's a half past twelve, laying in bed,
my arm keeps drifting over your cold spot.
No stolen blankets to complain about,
shivering alone, my heart's to pot.

It's a helf past twelve, and I roll over,
it's like you left me in the middle of the night.
We can't make up, just make up excuses,
we don't talk anymore, just yell and fight.

If I need you,
it's by practice.
Left me hurting,
my heart's a cactus.

If I love you,
it's just the past.
Time to move on,
pain fading fast.

It's a half past two, and this night's long,
wake up a dozen times not to find you there.
Stare in the mirror, how ugly I've become,
seems I've lost my heart around here somewhere.

It's a half past two, and I can't take it,
insomnia another way to say that I can't sleep.
Just a ghost of the man that I once was,
soul's to garbage, tossed in a midden heap.

If I reach for you,
it's by regret.
Looking for someone,
I haven't met.

If I touch you,
it's for closure.
Set your sights,
I'm left in exposure.

It's a half past four, and the night's almost done,
but I can't get the voices out of my head.
All the wrong decisions that made this back break,
what should have been happiness is now an empty bed.

It's a half past four, am I through?
the long night is ending, what will the day bring.
Can I move on, can I enjoy, can I try again,
will other pastures hold something more green?

If I talk to you,
it's just memory.
You just tell me,
why not to return.

and if I kiss you,
it's to feel the pain.
Everything is lost,
what will I gain?

02/27/2006