When I spoke with you
this morning,
my heart just broke
It was like someone
had put a knife
and twisted it hard.

I knew that my life
would never be the same
The words that you told me
had shattered my brain.

I wanted to cry
to scream out loud
but I had to be strong
even though I knew
I had to lie

I had to tell you
that things
would get better
with time.

It killed me
to speak
the words I said
but I knew that I had
to be brave
for your sake

I tried to bargain,
to talk with G-d
but my prayers
were ignored or denied

What can I say
when the sadness
is so great?

What can I do
to put a stop
to all your pain?

There is nothing
I can do
except to give
you my love
and know that
I would take your place
If I could

Life is not fair
I never told you
it was
I would give anything
to make it
all go away

12/31/2005