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Reflections On The Beach at Atlantic City

by Jeffrey Parren

As I grab for sand
This first feeling embraced
Summer’s glory
(It’s Sunday, September 18th)
Draws an hourglass of my life

Moments of clarity, scarce
Such as this cloudless morning
I compare myself to the sand
On which a rock is placed
For this very moment

My cheeks comfortably ease
Onto that rock onto that sand
Which seems cluttered
Cigarette butts, seashells,
The Savory peanut butter jar lay

Empty, existence fulfilled
Everyone and everything
Complete even with emptiness
And here I sit
Quibbling over losses

Life’s path yet discovered
Moronic delusions mar
Moments of clarity
Turning my beach fuzzy,
Blending haze with sunlight

My first visit to the beach
Since you died, mom
We didn’t go to Wildwood
Well, I didn’t…it changes
Condos replace memories

Life’s subtle yet quick advance
Allows not for healing
I wish time could stop
Let me live this 8:54 AM
Somber and unforgiving

For my soul yearns closure
Heartbroken over the loss
My best friend; taken
My mind scattered
Like rose petals on the sand

09/18/2005

Author's Note: Stuck in an endless loop of sadness and dreams crushed...

Posted on 09/19/2005
Copyright © 2024 Jeffrey Parren

Member Comments on this Poem
Posted by Charlie Morgan on 09/19/05 at 07:14 PM

...jeffery, my dear friend...up to stanza four i had no idea it was about your mother...and that doesn't subtract from the poems lovely, melodic albeit tragic direction...yet, writing-talking-singing about things such as the death of a loved one is fulfulling and releasing at the same time...now, to the preaching: my dear friend you will soon (a date to be decided by you) will cry the last cry, tally the last tear and otherwise embrace the ephemery which is where she now resides...that and in everyone's memory who knew her...but for real, time has a healing to it as it marches onward annnnd that's to include you my pal...dig it!, a book by Kathryn Kubler-Ross titled: Grief and Grieving, is about her up-coming death...so here's a woman who wrote volumes on grief (and death being the most main thing grieved about)...find it and you will have found a friend [in print] who's felt every emotion any of us has ever felt annnd she speaks to it honestly...greiving is done by you annnnd [are you ready?] FOR YOU...daggum your mama's already gone and in a lovely place annnnd dang-it she's left you et al. here alone/without her...lovely poem, jeff...lovely...peace, chaz

Posted by Joan Serratelli on 05/06/07 at 11:21 AM

The last staza made me cry. I have similar memories. We went to AC almost every year. It just seems like a bad dream that I will live the rest of my life motherless. You made me feel less alone- Thank you!

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