waking up today

I felt a twinge

a tugging at my shoulder

something was holding me down

the future me was trying

trying to get my attention

he is there constantly

I twist my neck and crack it

hoping to rid my tension

stress of impending future

why aren't you married yet?

where are your newborns?

how is that full time job?

don't have one?

if you die in 25 years,

and wait to have your kids

for another 10, that means

you will leave them when

they are still children

developing

15 years old or younger even!

they will be fatherless

countless numbers of years

pass without your influence

can you bear to hold that?

your conscience now

my future me

begs to ask why I wait

find a girl, settle down

marry quick! have those kids

don't leave them early

they will be left asking

why did daddy die young?

yet maybe now is the time

time to eat healthy

stop being so lazy

get a job and stick with it

one thing in place will lead

lead to another and another

and finally you can die easy

resting assured of hard work

providing foundation for your

spawning, and they in turn

will repeat

maturity

love

respect

09/02/2005

Author's Note: A ripe 25, and I think about this stuff?!

Posted on 09/02/2005
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