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i needed a day to reflect soul
by Ava Blu
no shower today;
i wanted to feel filthy hair,
lay in my bed saturated with menstrual blood
i wanted to stain my legs
and soil my teeth
i needed to be the opposite of what everyone thinks
of me
i do not want to see the full moon
nor the beauty of the storm
i just need a moment to dirty my skin
see, i must not be beautiful;
don't believe in lies
matted hair
the scent of sweat
hard lines around eyes
swoop down and cut deep around lips
tomorrow i will shampoo
and once again be prim and proper,
caking on the fake smile
i use it like most women wear makeup,
always too much
covering up sickness
like a blemish
were all too afraid to pop
because we were taught that scars
should remain inside.
08/18/2005 Author's Note: and so it seems i had my day
yet still remain sullen...
Posted on 08/19/2005
Copyright © 2025 Ava Blu
| Member Comments on this Poem |
| Posted by Anita Mac on 08/23/05 at 08:38 PM We all need a day like this every now and then. I'm sorry it didn't seem to help. Another wonderful poem emerged, though. Silver lining? |
| Posted by Gabriel Ricard on 05/02/09 at 04:52 PM There's a lot of venom running through the heart of this thing, but it's really well used because it's not all over the place, and it never once comes off as bitter or overly spiteful. It's just very angry, and it has a really ferocious point to make. This is great work. |
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