Since the light bulb burnt out

Heaven has added many more, but

Accepting your fate has been

Rougher than I expected

Other than the fact that I miss you

Now more than ever, because loneliness

Persuades me to speak with you.

After all was said and done, you

Reminded me who I was, I

Really meant something to someone

Every time I was down you were there

Never doubting my success,

You held me close, when I was lost

Over thinking everything dynamically

Undermined my best intentions

While you saw passed my growing pains and

I hugged you every time you wanted me to.

Loving was what you did best.

Lasting was what you tried so hard to do,

Belittled by one ailment after another

Each time hope grew larger

Maybe I did realize the end was near

Immobile in that hospital bed you did lay

So much potential and love and fight

Sometimes harmful words were shared

Every growing pain I’d take back

Demanding just another moment with my mother.

07/19/2005

Author's Note: Now, more than ever, do I miss our conversations, the times when we shared our thoughts, and you asked about my life when I barely said much about it, since it was always boring, but I realize now that it wasn't to you, and I should have shared more. I realize now how much it meant to you that I found something I love, and yet I have not done that still, but poetry is the closest thing to it so far, and I remember some of my writing was abstract and sometimes mushy like I wanted to change the world, and you would question that and I would get defensive because each poem is my child, I wanted the best for it, no negative talk was to be uttered about it, and that is how you looked at me, you just wanted to know what each stanza of my life meant...

Special Thanks to Margaret Fauve for the topic.

Posted on 07/19/2005
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