i'm so sorry that i'm such a
fucking piece of shit
i would've gone my whole damn
life without knowing it
but because of you telling me
that i am this way
i can give you your
just due and say
thank you
thank you

thank you for all the times
you attacked my self-esteem
and made me say stupid shit
that you know i didn't mean
thank you for proving to me
that i deserve terrible luck
because the world knows
that i'm not worth a fuck

i am lazy, i am shiftless,
and i will betray
anybody, friend or foe
until my dying day
i'm so sorry for trying to do
what was honest, what was fair
because you showed me
the world don't care

i'm so sorry that i'm useless
i'm so sorry that i'm bad
i'm so sorry that you know me
i'm so sorry that i'm sad
i'm so sorry i wasn't better
i'm so sorry that you're right
you're only helping when you say
i should run away tonight
either that or kill myself
slit my wrists and watch them bleed
or put a gun up to my head and
give my brain just what it needs
i don't matter and i know the
reason why is that you showed me
i don't
have love
need love
get love
deserve love

so i so deeply apologize
for i'm not worthy in your eyes
but i won't do the things that may
bring about my dying day
i admit that i ain't shit
and that this nonsense needs to quit
but i will never satisfy
your one desire to see me cry
i may disappoint you at every turn
but when will your ass ever learn
that i won't change what makes you pissed
and sticking around's at the top of the list?

06/29/2005

Author's Note: strange little disjointed poem, don't quite know what to think of it...still fits what i was going for but the pacing seems SO wrong.

Posted on 06/29/2005
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