Smolder*Star by Richard Paez
smolder*star
Still drunk remembering how strong you love, Star and how much I drink warm gasoline, play at lighting matches-- try to recall, shed light of my own, on my own resurrect you: Blaze
bring back but one of heaven's embers-- hot sighs from your just-parted lips, heavy with the scent of feathers and clouds too close to earth-- tears upward-falling luminescent caught in the August-static current of the world reflected in the pearl-globe of your eye dreaming heat and I recast a summer-child diving into the river-smoldering-wet on the brim of your lashes flooding
--intoxicating, mesmerizing, and in the end, beautiful (beautifully bright and painful)-- visible for miles and miles on this charged, clarion night where even the clouds pull back from your voice remembered.
I am as alien here as lightning playing across cloudless sky white transient scars, cataracts in my upward-falling view--
I will burn again, Star as you burned love as you loved-- earthbound, celestial ignited by the friction between smoke and shadows eddied behind your voice echoed.
Fire spreads like water-- the liquid breath of the god you swallowed, the gasoline in our bellies purple-swollen-flammable escaping our pores-- the electric breath of angels pinned by single threads of static growing sharper in the wind--
I burn, liquid kaniaStar, immolate echoes, cry smoke: invoking you is flowing: Your absence reeks of feathers. 05/26/2005 Author's Note: kaniastar
With all due admiration, gratitude, and respect, smolder*star was written after reading Kaitlyn Pietras' slow/gr@ffi+i~. Thank you Kait. I have been needing to write this for a long time, your word-forms called it out of me, gave me the inertia I needed to remember past the memories.
Posted on 05/26/2005 Copyright © 2024 Richard Paez
Member Comments on this Poem |
Posted by Michele Schottelkorb on 05/26/05 at 08:11 PM i have no decent words at this moment (and when i say "at this moment" think jane's addiction, song "three days"), to quantify this piece... suffice it to say, of all days for you to post this and for me to read this (it is my wedding anniversary), i am overwhelmed with emotion... this is pure and smoldering and gorgeous... this is poetry, richard... god, this is poetry... blessings... (now i shall go and fully digest this intensely passionate work) |
Posted by Michele Schottelkorb on 05/26/05 at 09:19 PM digesting and ate of again... pure, raw emotion, within internal realm... from whence we came, we shall go back again... brilliant... blessings... |
Posted by Traci Mabats on 05/27/05 at 01:23 AM Oh...my...lord...Richard, this is too beautiful. |
Posted by Max Bouillet on 05/30/05 at 10:14 PM You breathe poetry, warm and wet. The ashes fall from your passion and smudge words on the page as you offer the light of inspiration to those poets that read you... quick let me take a drag. Great read, Richard. |
Posted by Leslie Ann Eisenberg on 05/30/05 at 10:28 PM i've been too stunned to comment, so i read your poem many times now in the last few days, hoping for actual words. first, let me say that only you can make drinking warm gasoline sound sweet, appetizing even! truly, i was drawn in by the image of being drunk on the memory of a star. and the description of the star -- hot sighs from your just-parted
lips....pearl-globe of your eye....the middle stanza is a great transition -- the feeling of being an alien on your own planet, aching, alone and without is so effectively brought out by the vision of lightning without rain. and then, unexpectedly it turns from yearning to hope -- love again, burn again. and then, the most brilliant part -- your version of the invention of a star -- Fire spreads like water--
the liquid breath
of the god you swallowed,
the gasoline in our bellies...and in the end, smoke signals from your new fire -- your rebirth inviting her return. |
Posted by Michelle Floyd on 07/10/05 at 05:19 PM "burn as you burned" is, by far, my favorite bit in this, though I have a special affinity for all of it, raging astronomy strumpet that I am. Miss you, dear. Long time no type. |
Posted by Sarah Graves on 08/04/05 at 01:59 AM This is amazing Richard. You relate the cosmos to a human level of awareness, of pure emotion. I really like how you bring the characteristics of a burning star to a deteriorating spirit. I felt this more than I have felt something I've read in a long time. What a beautiful, layered connection you make with the soul. |
Posted by Bertram Sparagmos on 10/09/12 at 03:44 PM We endeavor to reach to the cosmos within and without, and are sometimes rewarded. Occasionally with a poem like this. A new favorite of mine. |
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