Part I

I’d whisper songs of me for you,
Into clogged ears and silent thought.
I knew that this was not the way
To make myself feel again.
That the coldness would not leave
Until my mind was made up,
And the hum left my blood stream.

I found my shoes in a hollowed tree
The wind tells me my heart
Will soon follow
No one will steal it this time,
Locking it away for months and days.

I will kiss the sky for you tonight,
The moon enveloping me in her shine.
I will let down my hair,
Bathe in the starshine, firelight, moondaze,
I will be the mirage on your horizon.

I lied.

I will never take hold of the energy
That connects me the dandelions
And the rain.

Part II


I fell asleep last night
Praying I’d change my path, or new stones would fall
I went to work this morning
At peace with my bucket of chaos.
Even though I had lost my sunglasses,
My eyes were open for the first time.

I sat in the same room as you,
Mocking you with my indifference
I am mightier than my silent laughter,
Smarter than my size C chest,
Yet I know you would never believe me.

Robert tells me the levee is going to break,
But I heard it shatter long ago.
I have just taken too long to gather my pieces
And see the world for what it really is.
I’d whisper you the truth,
But my tongue trips over my teeth too easily.
I lied.

I know that you know that I don’t give a damn
And I am still laughing,
My voice quiet and my eyes looking high.
Jimmy has always been the only one.
Maybe you should find some guitar strings to live by

I’ve just begun.

04/03/2005