i take pills to remember what day it is
& to remind me i cannot fly no matter
how high the building i wish to leap from

i take pills to protect me, to not let anyone
anything get the best of me, to not get
over emotional, or feel anything
really.

i take them so when i am talking to you
i can remember what it is i'm saying so
i won't drift off, won't say too much, won't
talk about anything too
personal.

i take pills to know you better.

i take pills to hide the worst parts of me
& they tell me the pills will make
me happy so

i take pills to make me happy. to keep myself
from getting out of line. so i will not get too angry.
so i will not curse, will not break anything.

i take pills to keep from killing me.
i take pills to keep from killing you.

...to cover up
...to lock away

they tell me the pills will make me happy so

i take pills to make me happy.
and i'm happy
i'm happy

i'm h a p p y.

03/16/2005

Posted on 03/16/2005
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