if you were right here
right now
at this very moment
i would tell you exactly
how i feel about you
i would let the anger and
the confusion and
the utter disappointment that
you caused in my mind
boil
up
to the surface and
EXPLODE
in an almost
orgasmic release of
aggression

if you were here right now
i'd tell you all about yourself
i'd tell you how much you annoy me
i'd tell you just how you've hurt me
i'd tell you everything worth telling
about the hell that i have had to endure,
knowing you and loving you
yet feeling so betrayed by
my own heart
i don't like you
right now because you made me
doubt my best qualities,
discounting everything that
caught your eye intially as
simply your
"tolerating my
incouragable behavior"

you picked it all apart
from the way i used to hold you
to what i used to do for fun
all the way to the way i
made love to you
now i doubt it all, every word
and it makes me hate you even more
because i had faith in you,
possibly more than
anyone else in my life
and you made me lie to myself
if you were right here
right now
i would scream this in your
face as the tears run down my
cheeks and you would
then realize that
this only hurt me because
i actually gave a damn
and that maybe, just maybe
i was the right one for you

but you're not standing
right here in front of me
you won't hear my anger
you won't see my tears
you won't know exactly how i really feel
you won't know that while
i am angry at you,
i still love you
but you will continue to hold everything
against me and hurt me purposefully
just to push me away
so as long as you are hurting me,
no matter what you are doing
or who you are with
i hope that these
two words find you:

FUCK YOU.

03/03/2005

Author's Note: this is what happens when you swallow lighter fluid and spew it onto a bonfire... explanation: what i just did would be considered spitting flame. if i ever spit flame in your general direction...you just fucked up!!!

Posted on 03/03/2005
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