I turned 42 last weekend and wondered what it meant
personally for me, I tend to analyze and compare
I know I am not where my parents were at 42
but that does not bother me
I know I am not where my sister or brother were and that concerns me

At times I think arrested development y be the core
but again I prefer to be young at heart
as that is where life is, that is where once in a lifetime experiences reside
and before I can't move or do things as fast, I want to experience all I can
after all this life is mine, and no one else’s, so I don't have to be like my peers

In my life I have seen my own recordings get international acclaim
I've acted upon stages with some of life’s great actors
in radio I have interviewed and met the ones who set the standards in music
I've met some incredible gifted spiritual masters
and I've met some dregs of society that others threw away, but..
I found some gardens of hope inside them when no one else would look within
I could drop names but what are names...is there meaning behind letters?
my name means something but I don’t know what
but it's my life experiences that I want to mean to more

I have 3 nieces that love me and who are my family since I will never father children
I have two siblings that love me dearly
I have two sets of parents that give me hope and support
I have artists friends that encourage me and see value in my craft
what more can one ask for in life

What it all means, as my friend JR said in a poem
what it all means is that I strive to make each moment the best it can
what it all means is that I try to do what I feel is right
what it all means is that I take care of and work with my talents so it becomes refined
what it all means is that in it all I don't lose sight of human interactions
what it all means is that I live in a way that embraces each moment with pure ecstasy and sheer joy
what it all means is that I be me and no one else
what it all means is to live

sure I make mistakes, but I try to learn from them
at times my naivety makes others think I am clueless
but my heart is pure, I just want to live

so at 42 I won't compare
I will just live
and do the best I can

11/01/2004

Posted on 01/27/2005
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