as unfair as it may seem,
you did this to yourself-

there were just too many blood cells
& dirty secrets beneath our finger
tips and i was tired of escaping
without you coming after me.

you knew it was a test, my leaving,
but you thought for once that it
would be better to just let me go
'cause god knows i can't do it on
my own anyway.

but in that silence, i did not bite
my tongue over you; and though i
had the weight of ninethousand
words on my shoulders, i could not
think of a single one that would
save us.

so i closed my eyes and inhaled
loudly, hoping to get just a tiny
piece of what i chose to destroy.

well, they told me the worst part would be
the smell of burning flesh, but all i
could think of as i struck the match was,
"burn, baby, burn."

01/22/2005

Author's Note: i didn't know it would hurt like this. because even after the flames, i could faintly hear your voice singing me to sleep.

Posted on 01/23/2005
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