His words were left on the computer
I quickly read it as if it had meaning
but nothing...just words

6 months later I came across the file again
this time I saw and felt the meaning he had left behind

he had written...
"Music does that to me. It makes me feel alive. I have always been an artist, as any true artist has. It's not something that you become, its there from the beginning, in your blood."

and towards the bottom were the words...
"I met 2 friends, up till now, I only had 2 friends."

hidden at the bottom, separated between comas,
he had 2 friends

not sure if he was including me
but through our mutal sharing, talking, and roller coster ride of life
I would say I as one of two

a note from the past that seems to have no meaning today

I wonder if what was could be?
or why messages from the past should be saved

we hang on to words as if they could save us
but salvation is for the living
and the past should stay buried

funny I ran into an old interest of mine that same day
after saying "lets stay in touch,"
they fell of silence's cliff
and now wanted to pick up where we had left off...How can you resurect feelings that took months to put down?

I just smiled and said 'hi."

maybe another person might be angry
and maybe another would have tried again
but I'm moving on towards a place
where messages don't exist
whree you speak your mind openly
with out need for written words

funny how a note from the past could have no meaning today

but if I sit and think about it, it hurts
and hurting is only for the dying
which I'm not

I'm living
I'm moving
I'm searching for my dreams...where messages won't have any meaning

where messages won't be
where messages just don't exist with out meaning

funny how a note from the past could have no meaning today

11/20/2004

Posted on 01/16/2005
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