today i pictured my death
i saw your face stained with regrets
i heard you whisper for forgiveness
but my soul was already sinking deeper to hell
i knew you would want me as soon as i was gone
but you wouldn't hold on

i can see everyone crying
missing the woman i was becoming
wanting the girl who always smiled
to them, i was something special
to me, i am nothing
they always kept their thoughts to themselves

this death i needed
that life i hated
and now i have nothing once again

i could see you peering over my body
with a sneer upon your face
everything you wanted you threw away
yet still you stood there feeling relieved
i never did believe
in you

yesterday i thought i wanted to die
i see the amazement in your face
your sneer has melted away
i believe in something now
i believe
in me.

12/01/2004

Posted on 12/02/2004
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