I was so wrong
my lips were wrong

why?
why did I kiss you?
and make my feelings known
I can't ever take it back
I'll always be the friend you've kissed
it meant nothing to love
it meant everything to friendship

why?
why did we have to do that?
take things off the shelf
that should always stay on the shelf
it only thickened our silences
it only pushed us further apart
it was so long ago
but I remembered it today

why?
why can't I forget it?
do I have to relive the bad times
when things are going well?
because I can't reach you
we hardly ever talk
it makes me wonder what would be
if it had never happened at all

would you still be my vodka?
my foster child?
my muse?
would we still sit and talk?
and laugh?
and know?

in my heart you will always be my vodka
my foster child
my muse

I don't want to kiss you
or be 'something more'

in the end
I just want to be your friend

*J - you're right this time*

02/25/2001

Posted on 10/26/2004
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