"I could have; I should have; I could have flown. I could have; I should have; I didn't." ~ Tori Amos

and I just don't know how to be when I'm with you
all the ways that I could love you and be near you
and allow you to cry on my shoulder as much as you need

those ideas stay inside because it's wrong to speak them
and I know how I could very easily take care of you
protect you from the pain, from the change
and I would if you would let me, if life would let us
if we weren't so different, yet so the same

and I can't keep hoping something might happen
when I know very well it won't

when I know very well you can't
and I can't be everything that you're looking for
you can't be the one I turn to when I'm out looking for myself
because I'm not a child anymore
you can't show me my adulthood
it's something you've never known

you have the most sincere smile I've ever known
and the beauty of your eyes silences me

but I can't keep hoping something might happen
when I know very well it won't

10/28/2001

Author's Note: about Daniel.

Posted on 10/25/2004
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