The eternal struggle of insomnia,
night time fleeting
minutes ticking away
one
at
a
time
and I stare at the celing
making faces out of shadows
wondering if each breath will be the last
counting heart beats
one
two
three
shit did it just skip?
The clock glows red against the black
2:22.... make a wish
I WISH I COULD JUST FALL ASLEEP
I count the breaths of my roommate
wonder what she dreams about
wonder what I'd dream about if I could dream
I wonder if I ever dreamt
at all about anything
infant dreams of shapes and colors and nothingness
but now sleep won't come
so I lie awake
wondering how long I can live without it?
Will I eventually just pass out?
What does exhaustion feel like?
I am insane?
Inevitably sleep comes a nour before the alarem goes off
and I never find out.

08/11/2004

Posted on 08/11/2004
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