Lost so long
Under misconceptions,
Expectations,
And a need to be wanted
Without wanting myself.

I directed so much energy
Into hating my home,
My eyes shut tight
To the beauty
And what it could offer.

The misery I felt
Was a personal creation
For me to wallow in
While I waited for life to begin.

So much time wasted
Caring about pointless things,
And anger that was poisoning my insides,
When all I needed was to see.

Mind now open,
I know the answer lies inside.
And a redirection of energy is all it takes
To see the surrounding beauty
And appreciate all there is.

07/10/2004

Author's Note: Thanks to Brandon.

Posted on 07/10/2004
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