I loved once
With a tempest’s desire
That burned me into a girl
I would never recognize now.
I would have yielded all my flesh and dreams
To this man who didn’t care about
Bruising my heart.

And I now bury this love
Into a graveyard for unrequited hearts
Mine still burns at night;
I try to writhe away from it...
Another man brings my heart to heel.

I try to disguise how easy my skin melts
And that I do find love an easy jewel to polish
If only this nightmare would stop knocking at my door
I could fully fall to the sway of this new boy’s limbs.
But, dreams are the only thing I can’t control.

I list all my reasons and consequence to knock the devil
Off my shoulder
He smiles as his prongs find my neck
And his servants prey on my spine.
If only weakness wasn’t a shirt I wore so well;
If only I didn’t look beautiful in Pain’s dress.
I want to leave my heart unconquered,
But it is too late to ignore the barracudas
that swim in my blood stream,
Devouring my common sense and perseverance

My flames are only doused when the sun bends
And all my joy is reflected in the waves
Of my heart’s ocean.
I feel whole when the earth shatters and
I am left with nothing but my own breath.

06/24/2004

Author's Note: "I don't wanna hear about it Your new infatuation I just wanna leave here wearing a smile" -Carina Round

Posted on 06/24/2004
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