load another round by Angela Thomas when i was younger, i used to be afraid of the dark. today, while i was taking out my contacts, i flicked the light switch and was again, right then, afraid of the dark. afraid that the nice electric company flipped a much larger switch and turned off my whole world. when i was younger, i used to be afraid of my step-father. well, I just broke up with my current fling because i guess i just don't realize how heavy my hand can land across someone's body and how much damage it can inflict. after all, it was a defensive reaction, a mechanism i gave absolutely no thought to. that's what scares me the most. when i was younger, i was always comforted by being alone. my bed was my sanctuary, a place that no one could touch or destroy, when i lie down in the middle, like the last cheerio in a bowl of milk. i'm only with him really because i am afraid to not be with him. i'm not skinny, i'm not special, i don't have time and effort and a careless heart to throw around like bait waiting for a bite. i can't just stand around imagining things to be afraid of any more because now the hits are counting, no paper target waved at the end, only a stern bullseye with my hands painted on it. take aim, and fire. 05/08/2004 Posted on 05/09/2004 Copyright © 2024 Angela Thomas Return to the Previous Page   pathetic.org Version 7.3.2 May 2004 Terms and Conditions of Use 0 member(s) and 2 visitor(s) online All works Copyright © 2024 their respective authors. Page Generated In 0 Second(s)