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Deep Well of Loneliness
by S.J. TylerMy body has been cast
into a well of loneliness
with high walls
trapping me
too slippery to climb
and too revolting, with mildew and scum
unthinkable to approach
all because she has gone
because she needed the certainty of a man
to take care of her
and give her a new name
to be socially presentable
and not live a life so incomprehensible
that she might be called a queer, a lez
now I wont even try to reach out for her
to touch the slimy stone, the repulsive, heartless
socially reformed princess
trapping me, forcing me to silence
in this dark, deep well
Im trying to sympathize
but its difficult with leeches
and cold water surrounding my ankles,
my knees, and my waist
leeches crawling into my undergarments
sucking my blood right through the fabric
much like you did
taking everything you needed
until what you needed I couldnt give
then tossing me here without anything
with which to shield myself
leaving me with my guards down
to take the fall
for your bad behavior
which you didnt think was bad
while you were behaving
now you are running a different track
while I have nowhere to run
youre a hypocrite
you wanted us to be together forever
but you couldnt bear the thought
of anyone knowing
and now youve got a husband
and things just now wouldnt be proper
though I notice that your new skirts are worn out
and everything you wore with me
was pristine because they were never really worn
so apparently its proper to be unhappy, and imprisoned
I hope youre proud to be really proper
but you didnt have to force me into respectable living,
this hell, with you
03/06/2004
Author's Note: Inspired by Radclyffe Hall's classic of lesbian literature "The Well of Loneliness" and my own feelings of mind games.
Posted on 03/06/2004
Copyright © 2024 S.J. Tyler
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