It is hard to explain how it feels now.

It almost feels like a lifetime ago.

I know longer walk in the fog.

I know longer feel my stomach drop when I hear your name.

I know longer search for you in crowds wondering if somehow you came back.

I know longer cry everytime I realize that you are not here.

The scar is still huge, but not quite as deep.

Now when I hear a certain song or am somewhere that reminds me of you,

I smile at the thought of you.

Tears still find there waydown my cheek but it doesn't burn like the tears used to.

I still think of you everday,

I still yearn for you and miss you.

And even though I will never understand why you had to leave,

I realize that you are gone,

and I am a better person because of you.

01/15/2004

Author's Note: ..as the sixth year marking of Kelly's death draws near...

Posted on 01/15/2004
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