it's the way you turn your head.
i can see the reasons why you
hurt me like this, love me
like that.
and when you think i'm not looking,
watching...
is when you are at your best.
but your words,
your words always come with a price.
and your lies,
your lies flow like honey, honey.
i don't have the arms to load all of
this extra baggage.
but i try and i fail
for you.
it's like you said once when you thought
i could not see you,
"an ocean is still an ocean no matter who
sticks their feet into it"

but change has never been the issue here
as long as we don't count the expressions
on your face or the reasons that live inside
of them, shadowing everything,

hiding

and yet still

you think i cannot see you and maybe
just maybe this is the way it's supposed
to be.

(and this is where i turn my head

to keep

you

from seeing

me)

12/16/2003

Author's Note: man i dunno anymore. everything just feels soooo forced. ick. i should just swallow next time.

Posted on 12/17/2003
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