High or low
High or low
Which way will the pendulum go?

Giddy, energetic, and there's so much I want to do
Party all night with anyone, it doesn't matter who
So much enthusiasm, so much ambition
Another project to embark on, start another mission
So much to talk about, so many conversations
So much to learn, so many revelations
This burning flame inside me, it won't die, never
But like all things in this world, nothing lasts forever

High or low
High or low
Which way will the pendulum go?

A constant grey cloud hangs above my head
I want to go to sleep and somehow wake up dead
A black veil covers my eyes and blurs my vision
Creeping down my face, influencing each decision
An aching heavy sadness eats away my soul
And leaves in its wake a gaping empty hole
And no matter how I try I am unable to fill it
And no matter how I try, I just can't kill it

High or low
High or low
Which way will the pendulum go?

Today I'm neither high nor low
Instead an anger is beginning to grow
Frustration takes root and blossoms to rage
I need to break out of society's cage
Fuelled by hatred and a thirst for revenge
So many wrong doings I need to avenge
Assault, betrayal, slander and lies
Too many people I've grown to despise

High or low
High or low
Which way will the pendulum go?

Today seratonin is back on my side
And all that anger has suddenly died
I feel so high I could fly with the stars
And to store all my energy I'd need a million jars
I'm soaring above and I don’t want to land
The world is my oyster in the palm of my hand
I can have it all, its mine for the taking
This wonderful life form myself I am making

High or low
High or low
Which way will the pendulum go?

From a pool of blood they peel me off the floor
Is this really the same girl from the night before?
Yes I am but at the same time no
I cant control where the pendulum will go

12/14/2003

Author's Note: manic depression...bloody exhausting!

Posted on 12/14/2003
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