When all is said and done,
I guess you respect wasn't founded.
But at least now you know the truth.
I loved her so much that it still burns,
to see her smile and dance.

But when you let something go
and you have to stand
the sight of it walking away.
You lose more than a person.
You lose a part of yourself.

I don't pretend to be perfect.
Frankly, you all know that I'm not.
And I've made some big mistakes
that cannot be easily mended.

But I have to know that everyone sees
the big picture when they look at me.
I'm tired of hiding it all under my skin.
I'm tired of being the "stand-up-guy"
I break down...I cry
and I stand up and look onwards
trying to make sense of my life.

I don't need you're approval
I don't want your acceptance
I just want you to know
that I don't plan to hurt
your friend ever again.
It would tear more out of me
than I could possibly stand.

There are places and times when
things look easy.
They are usually the times that
its all behind the scenes.
I don't pretend to know you.
Don't pretend to understand me.

12/10/2003

Posted on 12/11/2003
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