All the rooms were crowded

With people I didn't know

Still my bestfriend and cousin invited me to go

Drinks were passed all around

Someone handed one to me

One turned to two

Two turned to three

Not enough to cause a problem

Yet I feel so dizzy

Blacking out for what seemed like a minute

Why can't I move

Why can't I make a sound

I feel papalized all over

All of a sudden I'm in a different room

Someone is on top of me

But I don't know who he is

Why can't I move

Why can't I make a sound

Emotions start to run

What will he do to me

Someone must notice I am gone

Minutes seem like hours

All of sudden its all a blur

He tells me to be quiet

"It'll be over soon"

Oh God why me!

A bang at the door

But they can't get in

He yells for them to go away

All I hear is that familar voice

"Is my cousin in there?"

"Let me in!"

I want to yell

I want to scream so loud

Why can't I move!

Something is in front of the door

Keeping the world out

And me in this hell

My shirt is off and thrown next to my head

Oh God why me!

I keep hearing banging

I want tell them to not give up

His hands are so cold

As cold as the hand of death should be

Moving slowly to my pants

Why can't I move!

Why can't I make a sound!

Oh I wish I had never come

A new voice yells from behind the door

"What the hell is going on?"

"She's in there, I know it!"

"So let them be"

Which send shivers down my spine

"You don't understand, She wouldn't do this!"

The cold hand starts to unzip my jeans

I don't want it to be like this

Oh please don't leave, I'm really here!

The unfamiliar voice just tells her to go away

A silence of what seems like eternity

Left me to hear only this guys breathing over me

Someone please get me out of here

Why can't I move!

Why can't I make a sound!

I want to push him away

I want to tell him to stop

I slowly move my hand

This thing must be wearing off!

He sees and grabs my arms with great strength

Pain is all I feel right now

Losing all the strength I started to regain

I want to scream

I want to kick

But all I can do is lay here

Darkness fills the room

His face I can not see

Soon he has his way

And leaves through a window

Leaving me alone

I just want to tear off my skin

All I feel still is his cold hands on my body

Tears begin to fall

And the door is busted open

"Where'd he go?" is all they say

"To Hell" is all I could say

With the window open my best friend looks out it

No one is in site

"I'm so sorry, I tried" my cousin would repeatedly say

I just want to die, is what kept running through my head

But I can't let him win

Days go by, even weeks

That night is still fresh in my mind

But I will not let him win

Strength has been regained

and I have a life to live again.

11/21/2003

Author's Note: This is still a bit awkward, but I will work on it again when I feel I can.

Posted on 11/21/2003
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