You know when you look deep into your lovers eyes and see a million things going on at once.. but then you ask what they are thinking.. and they say 'I dunno..?'.. You get stuck wondering where's the communication? If you ask me what I'm thinking... I'd tell you how beautiful you are, how good you smell.. how deep my emotions run for you..but I dare not reply back.. I dont know. If I tell you these feelings, they make you feel uncomfortable.. they make you uneasy.. like this person likes me way more than I like them... right? Like I've been hurt before and know what it's like to wake up with nothing... even you...and I dont want to go back..to knowing what it's like to miss someone so bad, you wish you were dead. So Keep a comfortable distance.. with you I dont knows.. Maybe I do love too much.. someone who shares things in common with me.. Maybe I do think to much about something that involves my heart.. Maybe. But you know what? Take it or leave it. It's me. I'm a loving person with a whole lot of pent up love to give.. I've been jerked around, Jacked off, stepped on, shit on.. and I'm still here laughing.
People need to learn how to express themselves in words other than I dont know.. I might be a poet and a writer.. but these are words even the common wo/man can embrace...
Let's forget about the Blah blah blah's and the I don't knows and speak from the heart for once.. It might do us some good to get that love out.

11/10/2003

Author's Note: I wrote this as a journal.. but I figured it deserved a place here..

Posted on 11/10/2003
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