dissolved into a puddle of tears

i'm lying on the floor covered in all my fears

so much is floating around my head

memories, rembrances, all the things i dread

not a friendly face in my sight

i'm down on my knees, wishing to see the light

when will enjoyment fill my heart once more?

i don't wanna go back to the way i was before

just a number of days before i leave

will my abscence really be grieved?

i don't allow anyone inside my heart

i'm afraid of falling back apart

i'm afraid what they'll find will scare them away

after they see, no one ever wants to stay

once i open and show them my pandora's box

took time to sit by while i opened the locks

but as soon as a glimpse of what i am, was made

no one has ever stayed

i feel so terribly alone

this cold chills me, right down to the bone

please, why don't you save me?

be the one to help me see

more than just loneliness and dark

i'm walking alone in this deserted park

i hate feeling like i'm always going to cry

will anyone ever sit with me till my eyes are dry?

i thought i'd found the one who'd fix it all

but it was i that made the bad call

he ran as soon as he saw what's deep inside

i'd hoped he'd be the one in which i could confide

i guess once more i'm wrong

now he's going to be gone so long

i'm by myself once again

back to where i began

10/06/2003

Author's Note: heartbreak + loneliness + fear = what i am right now

Posted on 10/07/2003
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