And I'm thinking that it's never enough
I'm thinking it's good but not good enough
And I'm finally saying no because I'm finally in the know
I know you're thinking this is about you
and like Carly Simon I wanna say you're so vain
and you are but you're right this time
This time when you're victimizing yourself
(not unlike all the other times that you
got to be the victim and I didn't)
And I'm thinking I was nice but your wandering eyes
zipped right by me and my eyes shot right through you
Passed the person I thought was on my side
but you were straddling, walking the line
A sobriety test of sorts that you failed
Impossible, impassible ideals of what love should be
and I'm thinking that I almost believed but
it wasn't good enough and won't be
A realization that doesn't hurt like I thought it would
I guess nothing does when you're prepared for it
And I know you don't like the certainty I speak with
but this is me and always will be
Thought maybe I wanted to change but I didn't
or it would be done
Watered down apologies to all who wanted it and didn't
I needed assurance in actions but got only words
reading lips in braille
feeling nice but meaning nothing
Understanding nothing but the sensations on my fingertips
Mistaken identity.

10/07/2003