a lil too much truth, but hey ya know. (lang&drugs)

by Olivia Weinkein

right now
what i miss is the cocaine and the absolute honesty
that comes with it. you just can't lie yourself out of
nosebleeds these days. and i miss being drunk
every day. drinking myself to something i could live
with. i was stronger then when i wasn't so fucking sober.
because i'm constantly watching my back now to see
if anything is catching up with me. and my hands shake
a little too often. my mind
shakes a little too often.
sometimes, lateatnight
i like to pretend i'm better off.
but you and i both know better.
because regardless of whats good for you and what is not
i was more alive those days.
i was more alive.
these days, it's more like...

welcome to my grave.

i'm going to own me.


Posted on 09/28/2003
Copyright © 2024 Olivia Weinkein

Member Comments on this Poem
Posted by Frank Lee on 10/16/07 at 02:43 PM

I really like this a lot, and can relate.

Posted by Melissa Panther on 10/19/08 at 06:51 AM

What a pouring, love the final assertion of self.

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