I can’t believe it’s all come to this
all those things that I’ve forgotten to miss.
I can’t imagine my life any different
but then again, what should mine represent?
A struggle for my soul and a hole in my heart?
A loss of innocence and a place to play my part?

I can’t believe I’ve let it go on this long…
when everything I love has come and gone…

I can’t believe I was so blind to see
How simple it could have been to just love me.
Now I’m stuck in dire straights and it’s all my fault
so I just tread on and take life with a grain of salt..

Grains of sand is all I can see, in the meeting of us.
Like ant’s marching as we file on and off the school bus.
I used to think life had some grand scheme for me
but that turned out to be some stupid kids, made up, fantasy.
I spent years of my life trying to find a purpose
just to find the space growing between us.

I can’t retrieve or believe all the dreams I once clung onto
and now those fears and memories seem to grow more few.
There is one thing I know, I have to go and do
and that is, to somehow, confess all these fears to you.

08/30/2003

Posted on 08/31/2003
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