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up from depression
by Kalikala Smithmy mind betrays me
and i race through sinister thoughts
of blame and lies
all to hurt myself
with no real reason.
strings tighten around my heart
and i bleed for a moment
while my breath catches up.
my world comes crashing down far too often.
sometimes i do see the light
when God comes in and makes His home in my humble and dirty soul
that's when i feel the most ashamed,
the most vulnerable,
the most unclean,
and the most depressed.
eventually He cleans up what i've left to rot,
and then i can float for awhile until i make the same mistakes all over again.
i don't feel like trying to write wonderful flowing inspiring poetry anymore.
i feel like crying out to the world and letting everyone know,
that God isn't there for me yet,
but i know He will be.
He promised.
so what shall i do while i wait for Him? 08/26/2003 Posted on 08/26/2003
Copyright © 2025 Kalikala Smith
| Member Comments on this Poem |
| Posted by Max Bouillet on 08/26/03 at 09:47 PM A very inspirational poem that really strikes a chord with me. Thanks for posting such an insightful poem. |
| Posted by Vimal Rony on 08/27/03 at 08:27 PM Keep the faith in God and urself and write on and live ur life to the fullest moment by moment.Nicely written piece,Kalikala. |
| Posted by Jacki M Butler on 08/30/03 at 04:21 AM Crys, this is great, really sad....but great. You always did have the incredible faith, I wish I had that. |
| Posted by Tim D Livingston on 09/03/03 at 06:17 AM I feel like that so often. Like I ride this rotting cycle. Your writing definitely resonates with this struggling soul! |
| Posted by Christel Crews on 09/14/03 at 02:47 AM wonderful piece! thank you for posting it. i know exactly how you feel in it (its what i've been dealing with the past few weeks) |
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