why are you so fucking lewd to me?

i didn't do anything to deserve this type of treatment

my conception was referred to as

"one stupid night without protection"

maybe i should have been aborted

to save all this from happening now

i'm that ugly piece of jewelry that nobody wants

i get passed around more than a family heirloom

nobody could give a shit about what i've been through

or try to help me forget it for awhile

you think its all her words, her thoughts in my head

i survived 16 years in her grasp

before breaking free

you only took me in

because i had no where else to go

even though you said you wanted me when i was little

so why didn't you fight for custody?

and save me from the years of pain i endured

its because no one ever wanted me

as soon as i was conceived

i was labeled

MISTAKE

as soon as i left my mom's house

she changed my room into her new computer room

as soon as i leave here

it will be changed into the "grandchild room"

you say you already raised your three kids

don't blame what my mom did on me

i'm not her

so quit acting like everything that's happened was all my fault

when i was a child

i was born

i wasn't wanted

everything that is said

everything that is done

it's proof that it's all true

i'll find my niche in the world

but you won't be invited in

08/14/2003

Author's Note: my stepmom hates me. she tells me that what i say was implanted in my head by my mom when i lived with her. her kids are angels. when i go, i'm never coming back.

Posted on 08/14/2003
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