You don't know me
I don't think.
If you have been here a while
Reading what I write
You might think I'm crazy.
You might think I'm nice.
You might think I'm a middle aged Swedish man with a beer gut and mutton chops who spends all my time writing the new pop hits for the likes of Britney Spears, Pink, and Christina Aguilera.

Here is what I am.
I am a girl
Slowly becoming a grown-up.
I've had my heart seriously broken twice
And have finally recovered from the last time.
I am a student.
I am a tightwad when it comes to extras.
I put off buying groceries until I am down to orange juice and a potato.
I always ask for things politely, because I where I work, it's rare and appreciated that people ask politely.
I speak Hungarian, not fluently, but pretty well, and very well when I'm a little drunk.
I prefer the European way of life to the American way of life.
I've been to Argentina twice to see my dumb ex boyfriend.
Sometimes I'm a little selfish.
But most times, I try to give a lot of myself to people
If they want it
And if I can.
I try to rationalize the million reasons my relationships don't work out.
I cry when sad things happen on T.V.
I shriek and am forced to play with puppies when I see them.
I drive a shitty, yet free, car.
I don't get enough exercise.
I spend too much time writing poetry.
I joined this website for the wrong reasons, but quickly because a born-again poet.
I pick at the red bumps on my arms making them worse.
I cut my toenails in bed.
I secretly want a hot guy to bring me flowers at work so that everyone is envious of me.
I had a dream I was going out with Henry Rollins after he did a show here. Not because I'm particularly attracted to him, just because in the dream lots of girls wanted him, and I was the person that "won" him.
I cut people out of my life that I feel aren't worth my time.
People that aren't worth my time are people that make me or people I love feel bad, and don't try to remedy their mistakes.
I trust people, especially boys, too easily.
I never, ever cheat in relationships.
I don't even date 2 people at the same time (anymore.)
I love cherry pie.
I love my dog,
I don't like cats, they make me sneeze.

So I am a girl
Who loves pie
Loves Hungary
And is not a huge fan of my job.

I may be all these things...
But I'm not Swedish.

06/19/2003

Author's Note: Random random random

Posted on 06/19/2003
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