This morning I woke up
and hadn't the courage to stand
not because of laziness in my limbs
but because my door was closed
and I didn't want to face the world outside.

And so I woke
ignored my empty stomach
god knows why I'm still doing that
and thought about the people that weren't yet awake
all still in their beds
not seeing the world
outside the bedroom door.

I wanted very much to scream yesterday
I didn't.
I wanted to cry
and I let myself do that.
I cried and I'm not sure why,
but it felt good to feel human again.

I smiled, this morning
finding courage enough to dress myself
(Battle armor for the day)
because I felt that I was loved
and being the human we all seem to be
being loved felt like being able to see again
like peering out of a dark room
in the morning.

I didn't need reassurance
I reassured myself last night
while I was crying silently.
I told myself to stop
I knew that I was alive again.
One step at a time
foot infront of foot
and turned the knob.

06/14/2003

Posted on 06/14/2003
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